I Wonder

I wonder if . . . it ever was what I thought it was.

I wonder if there was ever anything more between us than two lonely, unhappy people who each needed someone at that moment.

I wonder if you meant a thing you said.

I wonder why you you even bothered proposing to me.  I wonder if in that moment you were as happy as I was.

I wonder if you ever intended to spend your life with me.  I wonder if you just waited until the end of the school year to cut two stresses out of your life at once.

I wonder what the girl who actually becomes your wife will be like.

I wonder if you were ever worth it.

Needless to say today was not a good day.