Sometimes . . .

I just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

I don't know.  Today was a shitty day.

Work was terrible and exemplified all the reasons I hate this store.  I was feeling iffy about the potential new job (like iffy as far as whether I'd take it or not if it was offered to me) but I think today's shift was a sign that if I do get it, I should take it and run.

Then the bus ride home with Jerbs was stressful because we got stuck on our first bus (thank you downtown Flag) and missed our bus leaving the transfer station, which meant waiting for a half hour at the bus station.  Plus our first bus was full of college students and went through campus, both of which stress me out and depress me.

We got home and I took a nap, and it was when I woke up that the wanting to curl up in a ball and cry started.

I just felt so discouraged.  I can't even really put into words why, I just suddenly felt so down.

A lot of it is Ex-Fiance.  I miss him so, so much.  It's just kinda hit me the past few days and I wish I could see him and talk to him.  We haven't spoken in about two weeks and tomorrow will be three months since the actual breakup.  It's weird, and I don't get what's going on between us, and I just . . . am lost.