Dr., Work, Other Stuff

Soooo let's see.

Yesterday I had an appointment with my psychiatrist.  I was absolutely dreading it, because I was afraid of getting yelled at for not having come in sooner, it's incredibly expensive and I hate paying so much for something that shouldn't be so pricey, there's not a bus stop very close to it so it was quite a walk, and I didn't want to get up early (9:30 appointment=catching the bus at 8:33).  But it's a necessity so . . . I went.

I didn't get chewed out for not coming in sooner.  My doctor was shocked and sympathetic when I told him about the breakup, and proud at how well I've handled things.  The bad news, however, is that when I got my labs in August, apparently my TSH (thyroid stuff) came back high, which I guess can happen when you're on Lithium (yay).  So he pretty much said I need to follow up with my PCP (I don't have a PCP, incidentally) and see what's going on and whatnot.  He said if it is a thyroid issue I can either just treat that with a thyroid medicine or change mood stabilizers.  I said I'd rather treat, and I actually got pretty emotional about the thought of changing my Lithium.  I told him I remember how bad it was and I don't want to go back to how I used to live, that I didn't want to take steps backwards.  He understood, so I have a lab order to get my TSH test done again (hopefully tomorrow) and then we'll see what happens with that.  If it's still high I'll follow up at a clinic, if it's normal (which I'm SO hoping it will be) we'll just be done with the issue.

(Can I just say that I love my psychiatrist?  He is amazing.  We just click, and I am so incredibly grateful that we found him.  Honestly, we only chose him because he was the first psychiatrist we called who accepted uninsured patients, and I think it was divine intervention.  I feel so well cared for with him.  I never feel judged, and he's just very . . . easy to talk to.  We never talk just about my issues--for example, at this appointment, he complimented my Halloween nails and we talked about Etsy.  He's such a nice man, too, and I love how intelligent he is.  Besides just being a smart guy, he loves what he does and is genuinely passionate about psychiatry and helping his patients, and that shows.  Love him.)

After my appointment Jerbs and I had breakfast at Biff's Bagels downtown.  A.may.zing.  I'd never been there before and I was impressed.  Then Jerbs went to work and I came home for a little while, before I went to work.

Surprisingly enough, work was actually pretty good.  I cashiered for a couple hours and then did a "membership drive" for a couple hours.  It was a good crew working and we had a lot of fun, and I actually found myself thinking, several times, that I was ENJOYING my job.

Lately night time bus rides home have been fun because there's a house along the bus route (on Fox Lair) that's already decorated for Christmas.  And this isn't like they forgot to take their decorations down this past January, this is legit decorated for Christmas.  It's weird but I LOVE it.

So at the moment, life is decent.